Getting It Together

This blog is a post to make up for last Tuesday. I’m back with finally my second post and let me tell you; this blogging stuff is harder than I thought. It’s around midterm time and I am what teachers call lost. I am absolutely overwhelmed with my full time work and school schedules. This class I’m in right now starts at 9:30; this morning I was so confused with my conscious and unconscious I thought it was Thursday, then Saturday, then the end of the term. Around the time I got my thoughts in order, I managed to figure out it’s the day after my birthday so it’s Tuesday. I had class yesterday so I have to go today. After putting that together I jumped up ran to my backpack and tried to find anything that will tell me the time. In the end I was only ten minutes late to class. And in the end this “only” attitude is the one that’s going to get me in trouble. I love learning but recently there has been a change. I need to be honest with myself. I have no drive. I’m depressed that I can’t say no to my parents when they ask for my school money. I’m depressed at the fact that I’m doing too much but at the same time it doesn’t feel like enough. I know that my parents don’t want me at home; I live in a very hostile environment. And now as of yesterday I no longer have the excuse that, “I’m a minor you can’t kick me out.” I know I have a serious illness, but I can’t go to the hospital because it confirms my illness and creates more bills. I am exhausted and I honestly have no one to go to.

Sucking the life out

So, I finally figured out how to do this blog thing. Talk about computer literacy. It’s what I absolutely lack. Here I am straight out of…I mean gay out of high school, and I can’t even remember the basics of computer foundations.
I should start with a proper introduction but these cool profiles have designated areas for that. I swore off all nouveau social networking for the simple fact that everyone out there was completely clueless; clueless to the world and its surrounding, to current events and to actuality. I did however try them out. Myspace, 13yrs old lasted about 6 months. Face book 16yrs old lasted 1 day. Twitter 17yrs old lasted 4 months. It’s not that I can’t commit, it’s just that I don’t want to be a zombie. (same reason why I gave up most t.v.)
I was assigned to do this blog by Mrs. Croker; my English 101 instructor. You will hear from me every Tuesday for the next three months and I’ll hopefully have something cool to talk about.
i'have to go to class now.
See you Tuesday