This blog is a post to make up for last Tuesday. I’m back with finally my second post and let me tell you; this blogging stuff is harder than I thought. It’s around midterm time and I am what teachers call lost. I am absolutely overwhelmed with my full time work and school schedules. This class I’m in right now starts at 9:30; this morning I was so confused with my conscious and unconscious I thought it was Thursday, then Saturday, then the end of the term. Around the time I got my thoughts in order, I managed to figure out it’s the day after my birthday so it’s Tuesday. I had class yesterday so I have to go today. After putting that together I jumped up ran to my backpack and tried to find anything that will tell me the time. In the end I was only ten minutes late to class. And in the end this “only” attitude is the one that’s going to get me in trouble. I love learning but recently there has been a change. I need to be honest with myself. I have no drive. I’m depressed that I can’t say no to my parents when they ask for my school money. I’m depressed at the fact that I’m doing too much but at the same time it doesn’t feel like enough. I know that my parents don’t want me at home; I live in a very hostile environment. And now as of yesterday I no longer have the excuse that, “I’m a minor you can’t kick me out.” I know I have a serious illness, but I can’t go to the hospital because it confirms my illness and creates more bills. I am exhausted and I honestly have no one to go to.
M--Yikes! Yo do have a lot of stress in your life.
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1)recognize you are not alone in feeling overwhelmed at this time of the semester--everybody does--even teachers.
2) spend as much time as you can at school and away from home--get as much as your work done here as you can. Stay away from toxic environmants if you can.
3) keep an eye on the big picture. You are young, VERY intelligent, and personable--these traits will take you far.
4) have you gone to the health center here? The nurse is really nice and might have some suggestions for you. Tell her your English teach sent you.
Hang in there. I'm thinking of you!
Wow, it sounds like you have a lot of serious stressers in your life. Do you need to talk? Send me an e-mail if you do, samdro87@yahoo.com. Hang in there!
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